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What I mean to someone? or Anyone?

I find myself entangled 

In my toil to find what I mean to someone

or anyone

How am I relevant?

in any way?

some way?

to some one ?

or any one?

Days pass by

I think I grew up

People think she grew up

But its never happening

still entangled

as ever before

Does anyone know?

How to find my answer?

Where to find my answer?

How much more should I grow up?

To find my real answers?

To the question:

What I mean to someone? Or anyone?

Exploring ones’ self and what does it really mean


What does it mean by exploring yourself?

How come you cannot get to know someone who is with you for more than 20 plus years?

If that is not possible without any deliberate efforts how can we expect to know any other person for that matter?!

The answers can be derived from these thoughts .. 

Each and every one of us does not really know who we are . Who we are includes the main question- what do we want. There are three kinds of realms for any person’s ego: one which I think who I am, another that others think who I am and the one that I picturise that others think who I am . 

It’s hard to know who we are really  and needs lot of courage and determination. All of us are prejudiced by the society we live in. The values inculcated in us by our respective cultures, the boundaries created by gender based taboos , local and global defenitions of right and wrong as interpreted by so-called gentlemen and ladies in fore-front , the books we came across, aura of people we met and got influenced by … All these and many more causes the creation of a personality by each one of us . We define ourselves by that personality. It forfeits what we really want and what we want to do. This is the reason why we must put deliberate effort to know the truth. Take courage to face that truth that I am exactly  not like this part as defined in that created personality or I don want to be like this. 

It needs a clear mind and intellect to see what is what and find ourselves from all those clutter since the opposing force is deep-rooted. And for a very long time .

It needs experiments with people , places, things and situations to figure out how to know ourself. That is the journey that one should take up willingly. 

Hope you will excercise that courage and let me know what you got. With love..

Your eyes!


What should I do to save myself from you.

Your eyes, like a stiletto, piercing my soul 

In and out.. Out and in

Oh! It’s so painful

Everytime you look at me

Like a silly moth draws itself to light, knowing the lesson

What am doing is being closer and closer to u

As if letting myself bleeding from your stilettos

As if that’s the only thing I want of this whole world

It’s fuming inside me .. The way your eyebrows twitch when you look at me.. Oh someone help me breath!

Am loosing my mind.. Trying to be here an there… Not looking at you .. Want to see only you.. But can’t stand u looking at me..

Where can I take shelter? May be .. May be ..

It’s in ur eyes….

Come let’s Define happiness

Quest for happiness starts way back to the origin of mankind. Even though we have a battery of god men claiming they have the key to happiness, it is obvious from this very post that key still remains lost. Why?

Happiness is not only about fun. People are in search of happiness. Which isn’t available anywhere unless with a time tag. It’s not the happiness that one must seek. It’s the inner peace . That must b the core. Happiness and sadness will come and go ..like sun and moon . Like summer and winter . What should remain forever is the peace from within. People get confused. In what to seek . It is obvious that if u r not sure of what you want ,you will never get it. 

So what are you looking for ? Happiness or peace? 

First be sure what you want . Then think what you have . Are you in peace with your self? Are you struggling with your mind ? If you can feel the peace inside .. Then only thing remaining is to understand .. That you are in happiness or you are in sadness. Both won’t stay. Just step aside and watch. Both will fade. Every time sun shines some flowers bloom an some gets dry. Every time night falls ,some flowers bloom some falls forever. Every season creates some change and leaves some mark behind . That’s how nature became so perfect with all its imperfection. 

It’s the same with you. Happiness and sadness are just causes that are peripheral. They may leave some shade on you. But the inner dynamics of your self is governed by the peace.

So let’s not search for happiness. The word is peace. Only that will remain forever. 

Value people who bring peace to your life. Not happiness. Because it’s the former that s going to stay forever.

Sane as in Insane

saneinsaneIt doesn’t mean am all ok

If I don’t throw that beautiful glassware on the table.. And watch it shatter on the floor

It doesn’t mean am insane

If I yell on top of my voice to the breeze that played with my hair..

It doesn’t mean am all ok

If you can see my lips parted from each other..

It doesn’t mean am insane

If I just enjoy myself whole of a rainy day just watching the drizzle falling on my palm..

It doesn’t mean am all ok

If I just walk around and make up the home..

It doesn’t mean am insane

If I laugh my stomach out again and again on the same ad in TV..

It doesn’t mean am all ok

If you don’t see kajal washed away from my eyes..

It doesn’t mean am insane

If I am “crazy”…

It doesn’t mean am all ok

If I am “normal”…

But..

Am all ok.. Sane as in insane..

 

Missing you!!!

Every moment you are away from me,

My heart pounding is a vain.

People around me

Jumping and bumping

Still, Am not alive

No.. Not without you

 Everything about me must happen for you

Not for anything else .. not for anyone else….

Am not alive

Like a fish out of water

I am longing for breath

Yearning to get beside you….

Am not alive

 I want to rest on your shoulder.

Love is pain. In and out.

I miss u.

Am not alive..

 

 

38 Emotions You’ve Felt, But Couldn’t Explain

There are many feelings we can experience without an actual word that describes the sensation. These are like poems. If you get up and read them as such, giving proper weight and pause to each phra…

Source: 38 Emotions You’ve Felt, But Couldn’t Explain

 

This is a wonderful post that I stumbled upon just now. As suggested by the author, pause at each phrase and give a thought.

When you gaze at the clouds calmly for a long time, you can see pictures drawn by the nature. May be a smiling face, a flower bud, a small hut.. Its just the same kind of feeling I got after reading this post. So many emotions combine and intertwine to create some feelings that can be sensed clearly, but cant be defined. Nighthawk and keyframe are the ones that connects with me greatly.

What’s yours?

Let me know with your comments!!

Hope called “love” !!!

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I thought you are my everything, 

And I am your everything.

When my wit hesitated to accept it,

Then I did not know that my heart will have to pay for it.

I hoped you will be the cold breeze for my weeping heart.

Spring of my love lingered to bloom… always waiting for next spring.

I knew what love is.. I felt what love is….. The day I knew you…

I did not believe in duets and poets,till…..The day I knew you…

I knew the depth of beauty in them…. The day I knew you..

Somebody had told me that love is the most beautiful pain on earth…

I laughed.. “He is the prince of dreamland..”

Now I know..his heart..his pain.. as mine..

Am waiting for you..

As a sapling in sun waiting for a drop of water..

Can you see me? You are away from me.. Far Far away..

Am waiting for you..

In lonely darkness.. With a heart full of first love…

I have forgotten me long ago..

Now I have only U.. only U…

I do not know whether u have me..

But I do not have myself with me..

I am lost… I am lost in you,my love……

Dedicated to all in love!!!♥

 pic courtesy: theodessyonline.com

Being sensitive and sensible

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Hey there,

 Are you a sensitive person? In great distress? Having those horrible hopeless look on your face? If you think you need a mirror now to check that ……… then you need not read this post…you are not that hopeless. Or, if you are nodding to my last question without a second thought, come along.. let’s talk  for a while here.

A very good morning. It’s a beautiful morning with my mind and air in calmness. Its a great idea to talk about and think about our feelings when we are not submerged in those feelings. Whatever it might be .. Be it love,anger, happiness, sadness….It always helps when you give your emotions their own time. So I have learned a way to help myself and hope that it helps you too. There are times when we feel bitterly low. As low as in a trench. Having no hope of better tomorrow. What you can do then? Just indulge in that feeling. Fully. To the deepest. Do not try to resist it. You try to swim up the river, you will get more hurt. Do justice to all thoughts evenly. Be it happiness or sorrow.

Happy? Be beaming with joy..

Sad? Moan till your eyes pain..

Wanna love? Love with all your heart…

BECAUSE.. THAT IS WHAT DEFINES YOU. You are lucky that you have a sensitive heart, just like a baby. Celebrate the sensitive person you are!!  See the touch-me-not.. Don’t you think that plant is more of life than any other plant on earth?!!

 

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Who am I & Why am I here

Hello All,

 I am a fun loving person who likes to hang out with friends, watch sci-fi movies, read, dance(should have been first in the list!), sing, crazy about DIY stuffs, fascinated about learning new things and the list goes on. Also, I am a scholar doing research in electrical engineering, to speak about my career.

And coming to why I am writing a blog is .. foremost reason being making myself capable of thinking clearly. I think, when we put something on writing we will try to make things clearer inside our head. Writing for others to read, helps to remove a lot of clutter from our thoughts, which I seriously look forward as a target. Second reason why I write is to share my views on life. Since young age, I was fascinated about people. How different they are, their thoughts, attitude, beliefs. Its so fascinating to study people.. just like colors in a rainbow. Colors merged together beautifully, still demarcated across the spectrum. People with clear distinguishing characteristics exist in fairy tales only. In real life, we cannot find any person who is clearly a Rama or Krishna  neither clearly a Ravan or Kamsa. Hence it is so interesting to observe people, at least for me, to think about their traits in different dimensions. I want to write my thoughts and my views on life and relationships here, in my blog. I love to listen to people with like minds, who have quirky views about things around. So.. that’s why I am here!.